I'm Sad

(A Phraseology)

There are a hundred things that I want to write

Words that swirl round in my brain at night

Thoughts that jostle me throughout the day

and bother my brain while I'm working away.

Nothing I think to say sounds quite right

It's impossible to phrase what I'm feeling inside

Something like death is too hard to explain

I'm feeling one thing, and it's pain, just pain.

I do not know which words to choose

There's just one word that I want to use

I'm feeling so sad, just so very sad

That's the only word that I have, just sad.

"I'm Sad," doesn't feel like enough this time

Someone is gone and my heart is crying

In my soul one little word means

a lot of things, just a lot of things.

So here it is, for it's all I've got

I'm just going to say it, even if it's not a lot

Try to understand, it's all I had

I'm just feeling sad, so sad.

It hurts to see my sister suffering

It hurts that I can't be the one that's comforting

the buffer between her heart and the pain

I wish I could make her smile again.

Maybe someday I'll know how to explain

the depths and the void and the murk of this pain

there's so much more than these words that I have

But for now, this is all that there is....

I'm sad.

Samantha Jayne Frost

For my Friend <3